Tuesday, December 13, 2011

My Lillitu, the mother of my spiritual child


For the past week I have been working with a Lillitu named Azabul, performing a rite to birth a spiritual child. At night, when everyone else in the house is asleep, I take a shower and lie in the tub while envisioning Azabul and summoning her. When she arrives (usually known when I can clearly see her with my eyes closed) I remind her of her task and then ritually masturbate while envisioning us having intercourse and give her more of my essence, making sure not to open my eyes till I give her license to depart. After we have finished, I again remind her of the task I have given her and then give her permission to leave.
For the service she is performing for me (bearing, then eventually birthing, my spiritual child) I have agreed to construct a wooden disk bearing her sigil so she may inhabit it and become stronger.
Every time she appears my vision tends to darken and light coalesces into an oval shape, usually of red blue and purple. After giving the final call the oval forms into the shape of a young Latino woman in her early twenties, usually with long brown hair and deep brown eyes (on two occasions the eyes have been blue, and once the hair was short or tied back, I could not tell). She will usually take my hand and hold it against her belly for a moment before beginning, and will then lie on me afterwards while whispering the details of the sigil she wishes me to place on the wooden disk (apparently a red -^- shape painted in acrylic). Often the feeling of her touch is very faint, building to an almost tangible sensation around my lips and chest when she kisses or strokes those areas with her hands.
For anyone interested, the calling I use has this core, with elaborations as fitting to the mood of the day;
“oh spirit (name) I call thee by the word and name of Narlathotep, rise, rise that I may see thy form
Oh spirit (name) I call thee by the forsworn covenant between man and the gods, Rise, that I mat hear thy coming
Spirit (name) I summon thee by the words of power, I command the to rise that I may feel thy skin, Rise that I may taste the sweet nectar of thy chalice, Rise that I may smell the sweet musk of thy quivering skin,
I command thee to rise and smell the incense!”
When she appears I remind her of her service to me
When finished I remind her of her Service to me
I give her the license to depart:
“Oh spirit (name) by the word and name of Narlathotep I grant thee permission the leave, Go. Remember well the work you must do, and forget not the covenant.”
I will than wash myself while thinking or saying “purge me oh lord and I will be clean, wash me and I will be whiter than snow.”

Thinking in the shower


Today I had a unique thought concerning the magical Eucharist. If we suppose that semen is the essence of life, or rather the fire of life, then what exactly is the blood of the Moon? I believe it is the essence of death. The blood of the moon is the essence drawn from Babalon, or Scorpio, and contains the deceased egg that was not fertilized. This acts as a catalyst for the Fire of life, enacting the most fundamental act of Necromancy; giving life to that which is void of life.
If we take the story of Ishtar’s decent into the underworld as an example, we find that Istar, after taking seven days to pass through seven gates, is laid bare before the Goddess Ereshrigal and stricken dead. After hearing of this, Marduk ventures to the Underworld to find Ishtar and givers her the Breath of Life, thus reviving her and returning her to the world of the living as a Spirit Child. It is not difficult to see that Ishtar’s lifeless body is like the Egg, and when given the Breath of Life, ascends to become a Tulpa of sorts. This is very similar to the Star Sapphire, in that it is a means of magically empowering something with the essence of life its self.
Where does this all leave us? I believe this calls for a series of magical experiments, namely utilizing sexual rituals for Necromantic purposes, and re-exploring the Necromantic arts as a whole. Crowley distained the use of Necromancy, believing it to be an inferior form of magick. I have long believed that Necromancy may very well be the essence to the new Aeon, and a crucible for Chaos Magick to be worked. The only way to discover the truth (Nothing is True, everything is permitted) of the matter is to Research and Research some more.